Loaded lyrics

I am a friend
You watch me slip again and again
I know your name
You tore me up, left to bleed
But I still want you.....
I come, it will blow
Yeah, I'm clear like rain, but I feel like snow into the bends
I can't see where it all ends
I'm wide awake
But still asleep
Again the buzzing in my ears
Yeah, I'm a loaded,loaded,loaded,loaded gun
Pull the trigger, I will shoot you one by one
Here comes the day
Will sweep my sorrow and lies away
The ground is so cold
In the morning sun, feel overthrown
I'm wide awake.......etc